mera confession yeh hai ki…..i feel like a loser….unloved… my parents do love me… bt i feel like ki.. mei unka love return ni kr paati hun.. i hv frndz…. bt i guess.. only one of them is my best friend…i hv feelings fr a online frnd jisko mei 4 saal se jaanti hun.. usko btaya tha 2 saal pehle.. bt he said m jst a frnd fr me… tym laga move on krne mei…bt i did it… usse baaat krna boht kam ho gya… den again...usse baat hone lagi n wo suppressed feelings fir se jaag uthi…..esa lgta h h ki he likes me back..nw.. he evn gave me his debit card no.. once.. kch online payment krna tha n his net was down……par guts ni h fir se bolun usko…….shyd wo ni bhi krta like n mei sirf assume kr ri hun……….i feel lonely. meine commerce le li… 11th mei coz mere schul mei humanities ni h… i shud hv chngd my school.. kahin aur kisi city mei chli jaati.. bt i didnt come out of my comfort zone n now i’m paying for it through d stress…frustration.,,, n tears! i feel horrible… mere ko interest ni aata… concentration ni lgta… thoda boht padna strt kia bhi toh jab test hue… tuition mei…fail ho gai… ab pada bhi ni jata… my teacher……….he treated me today as if m a loser………n i cried.. fr d 2nd tym in d tuition…pehle bhi ro chuki hun.. sir ko poori prob btai.. u knw hez a nice human being… unhone muje samjaya dat kch tym ki toh baat h.. aftrr 12th i cn chng my stream……..i know dat.. bt march tk ka tym..kat te ni kat ta.. pada bhi ni jata.. par merko ache no. lane h.. or elz kahin admission ni milega merko toh ye bhi ni pta ki 12th k baad merko krna kya h.. kch options h par use se watz best fr me…pta ni… logon se discuss krti hun.. thoda clear hota h……. bt still kch paka ni pta………kch samj ni aa rha h kya krun.. i feel sad….. life mei kch direction hi ni mil rha h
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